Getting real and finding gratitude for my not-so-perfect nature on day 5 of @positivelypresent 2019 gratitude challenge.
Being silent or putting on a mask doesn’t help anyone, and it goes against my nature. But that’s where I find myself, wearing a frozen smile moving woodenly through the days, repeating “I’m fine.” But I’m not always fine. No one is. Because that’s life. Good, bad, up and down and sometimes sideways.
Getting real, being honest, if not with you than with me, sharing life’s misadventures was one of the whole reasons I started this blog. But somewhere along the way I got lost. Hell, I got scared. So I brushed over events or worse, I went silent. Because I didn’t want to be seen as a victim or a whiner or a bitch or a, well, fill in the blank.
As we move towards the close of the year I realized that my word of the year BRAVE also got lost somewhere in the mad rush of days and events. Looking back maybe I should have picked Honesty or Transparency or anything else?
Brave… that’s a stretch for me. But, hey, there’s still time right? So in the spirit of getting back in touch with my true nature I’m going to spend some time remembering who I am, peeling back the mask and getting real, finding gratitude in my own imperfect nature.
Sending you love and happiness.